dustbin3 Thread

When I was 12 had a deja vu for the first time in my life. It was without a doubt the strongest feeling of deja vu I've ever gotten in my life and it didn't feel like the first time I had seen this series of events, it felt like the 4th or 5th time. I instantly recalled what I did these other times and for some reason wanted to change it. It was my uncle changing the dials on an old television. he was trying to turn it to the input channel (3) for his Atari. Instead of turning it from 2 to 3, he went from 2 to U, then back to 31, then U, then 2, then 3. For some reason I knew this sequence before he did it and this time decided to say it out loud. I said it loud enough for my mom to hear it and give me a really strange look. She never said anything to me about it though.

We left shortly after and I was freaking out on the inside because what I had just experienced frazzled my brain. I felt like I was losing my grip on reality as saying it out loud made it so real. When I walked outside it was a partly cloudy night. I started walking to the car, which was parked about 100 feet away. This was out of town so there was almost no light and it was hard to see my feet in front of me from the porch light so far away. My mom said she had to go back inside again, and stepped in. When she did a light flashed by over head, circled and stopped right in front of me. I looked up at it and as soon as I got my eyes on it, it took off at a speed and trajectory that I couldn't comprehend. I felt like I was being watched and I couldn't move. The next thing I remember is that I ws in the car, I slammed the door and huddled over in a ball and cried. I felt like I would never feel safe again. After a while nobody came so I ran inside and collapsed crying. I remember my grandma holding me and asking me what happened, but I couldn't make words come out. I just remember saying I"m so scared grandma and crying.

I started having panic attacks shortly after and have lived with that condition for over 20 years now. I don't know if I would have developed the disorder or not had that night not happened, but it has stuck with me as the strongest moment of anxiety in my life. I don't know if this is creepy or not, but it is to me. If I ever get to relive that moment again, I"m going to keep my mouth shut and try to forget it as soon as possible.