I had a good buddy that always seemed to get arrested. Drunk in public, resisting arrest, reckless operation, ect.. One night last summer, I was searching around for his name in recent police reports online. Felt a strong feeling come over me. It felt as if he was disappointed in me. He was upset that I only thought of him as my "bad" friend. An hour later I got a call that my friend had committed suicide earlier in the day.